I'm Drowning By Kamaria Ngozi I'M DROWNING! I'M DROWNING! I'M DROWNING! Drowning in the shoe box full of broken promises you have given to me! Drowning in the reality that you and I will neva be! Drowning in the tough love you _abusively_ express to me, then you have the nerve to reach over AND try to caress me?? Talk about audacity!! Brotha, my emotions are not to be teased! I'M DROWNING! Drowning in the "Uh, I ain't got no phone, but you can reach me by my pager" type Brothas. And Sistas don't let the current pull you under with them cheap azz, I'm-calling-YOU-collect-cuz-YOU-paged-ME type Brothas!!!!! Drowning in the "Uh, I ain't seeing nobody - only with you I'm tryin to holla," then you find out 3 days later Brotha is living & sleepin with his Baby's Mama. Drowning in the "I LOVE ME SOME BLACK WOMEN - THEY B MY QUEENS, THEY B MY WORLD - but because they got too much got damn lip - I gotta go get me a white gurl" Now all that lumped together was enough to pull a sister under, but the Spirit of my Ancestors lifted me up and made me stronger. Don't look now, another whirlpool is sucking me in. I can't believe it, I'm drowning once again!! I AM DROWNING!!! I'm drowning in Sistas whose sole method of birth control is abortion. I believe you have a right to choice - but Sista, choice should have been made before Brotha Man entered your Heavenly Course. Now sperm has reached egg and the two have become whole. But because You continue to think with your Lower Self, irresponsibility leads you to murder another Black Soul. Baby drowns in a mixture of lust & acid juice. Can you say GENOCIDE, cuz I'm drowning too!? I'M DROWNING!!! Drowning in Sistas! Sistas who spend their entire check on the latest fashions - take a trip to some of their homes and the children B eatin air sandwiches. Bay-Bay ain't had a bath since last week. T-Bone outside slanging rocks to undercover police. Tee-Tee ain't seen her menses in 8 weeks, but Mama be Looking GOOD in the streets. Sista can't seem to get her house-hold in order so every night in the club she drowns in a bottle. I'M DROWNING!!! I'm drowning in these arm-chair revolutionaries who wont help our political prisoners gain amnesty, mention Assata Shakur, Sundiata Acoli, MOVE 9 & Mumia and they say "We ain't ready for them to be free!" I'm drowning in the quick sand of lies religious folk keep trying to control my mind with. From that Adam & Eve Story on down to that homosexual trinity!!! See the Real Trinity be Ausar, Auset & Heru - That's right the Black Man, The Black Woman & the Black Child too. If anybody tells you different, tell them to refer back to the most Ancient of Scribes. It's time we destroy All foundations built on lies. I once was blind but now I see, through the Tree Of Life I can control my own destiny. So when the currents of strong waters try to take me under, The Sun changes my physical composition & my vapor dances across the waters, So I throw my life preserver to YOU. Kamaria Ngozi MzGoldie2u@aol.com COPYRIGHT 1999 http://www.7cipher.com/~MzGoldie2u/index.html